I'm not in the mood to blog. It's way pass bedtime. Not only am i tired , i'm an idiot.

It feels weird to sit in front of the phone, hoping it buzzes. Praying that it will be someone you hope to be. No one will say that you are sane for staring at your phone , no one will pat you on your back and say " well done, keep it up!." Despite the negative 'qi', i find joy in doing such silly stuff. Is this love or a liking for someone?

Honestly, barron you're being ultra dumb. It's always one-sided. haha. Tell yourself you have enough of this crap and you shall not take part in such time consuming game and do something productive to your life. Yes, it's very tempting to be love in someone but it hurts even more when it's not recipocrated. Fuck off barron.

Argh!!! i'm tired.

Junhao, how now? i've been stretched to my limit. You know what i've been through and you i'm just a simple guy who needs something simple such as love.